Holy Night
The city was inflamed with flickering decorations
and the streets spicy with the scent of freshly felled pine trees. I am unhinged.
Women with fox collars floated by, probably hauled from dark armoires against winter’s
early bite. I am frozen. Children clustered before fairy-tale windows, tiny hands
groping in woollen mittens. I am discarded.
It was
snowing while the knell of the angelus reverberated from the damp cathedral. I
sat beneath a large rose-window, which splashed purple glazes of light over me-
like aquarelle benedictions, refracting through stained glass into the stony
chill. I tried not to cry. My coat pulled tightly around my bent body. I could
smell waxy candles spluttering in the giant candelabra, chasing phantom figures
over the faded fresco walls. My hands lay rejected, like amputees, in my lap. I
stared at the thin white line on my finger were our wedding band used to be.
Jupiter winter
Chilled city bearing lights
Winter coats- floating knights
Streets spiced with freshly felled pine
Tiny hands groping at the shepherds sign
Bells holler from the holy shrine
I fix at the the skin’s white line
where a wedding band used to be
My hands, rejected on my knee
where will you go, where will you go, where will you go?
troubled heart, troubled heart, here with all
